Easier To Run~~

It's easier to run...replacing these thoughts with something numb.
It's so much easier to go...than face all this all alone.
Something has been taken from deep inside of me.
A secret I've kept locked away...no one can ever see.
Wounds so deep they never show...they just wouldn't go away.
Like moving pictures in my head, for years they'll keep replaying.
If I could change, I would take back everything, I would...
Retrace every wrong move that I made, I would...
If I could stand up and take the blame, I would....
Sometimes I remember the darkness of my past,
Bringing back back these memories I wish I didn't have.
Sometimes I think of letting go and never looking back...
And never moving forward...so there would never be a past.
Just washing it aside all the helplessness inside.
Pretending I don't feel misplaced.
It's so much simpler than change....
Should I take the alternative route?
Will God ever forgive me if ever I do...