An Inner Pain - a heart grown cold~~

I wish I had the wings of an eagle,
for I grow weary, physically and emotionally,
My life is in turmoil, but of whose making?
Is it of my own? Is it from the enemy? Is it from you, my dear heart?

I am in the wilderness, with a heart grown cold.
Anger, bitterness, sadness assails me as despair and confusion comes flooding in.
I turn to You, oh Lord for comfort.

It feels like You have forsaken me,
but then I know You would never leave me.
You promised no one can snatch me from Your hand.
And so I will put my trust in You.

 I hurt real bad but I have one glimmer of hope,
For Your Word says, “To him who overcomes…”
So help me to overcome, hold onto You and trust You.
And before I know it, by Your strength and through Your grace,
I will have made it through this.
For Your grace is sufficient for me.
You are my hope and my expectation, the very desire of my heart.
But please search my heart , examine me, cleanse me.

I don’t know why I’ve fallen to pieces, which I know I shouldn't.
There’s too many issues, too many implications,
But You are greater than all of these, and I am Yours.
I will praise You, I will exalt Your Name.
Jesus, I love You. I need You.
Please come quickly.